Cried at 35

So today I turned 35. It has been the most emotional birthday yet. I am not quite sure if it was because today is my birthday or if its just an emotional day.  Perhaps it has to do with the amount of chaos an adult handles at this point in their life with friends and family. I was actually sad today. I mean I absolutely adored the gift scavenger hunt the girls lead me on at 645 am the morning. That was wonderful, joyous & fulfilling. But I was emotional and sad today. I was faced with a lot of memories & quick glimpse of my life in flashes. In these visions I saw crying, fighting, joy, laughter, love, sadness, fear, accomplishment, challenge, fast, slow & everything in between.

So whether it has to do with today being the start of my 36th year venture or not, I am going to take a moment to declare some changes, focus’s & dreams. If I were my 70 year old self, what would I say to my 35 year old self.

Heather

Don’t work your life away. Spend time with the people you love. You have faith and trust in the Lord don’t live it part of the time, live it all of the time.

Ask Him to show you every morning “What else can I give you, that I haven’t already”.

His desire is for you to live a joyful, fulfilled life.

Take a moment each day to breath in your blessings.

Think about what you are doing that requires God & what you are doing that only requires your own strength and talents. Allowing God to use you is way less exhausting.

Ask God to show you how to spend time with the beautiful daughters of yours. Time that will create memories and have a lasting impression. Make this a priority.

Look people in the eyes. So much is missed when you don’t see someone’s spirit by looking them in the eyes.

See the beauty in all of God’s creation, it is breath taking. Take a moment every day and ask God to reveal the beauty around. The beauty that so many people are missing in this fast paced life.

Listen to the songs lyrics people are speaking in, there is a melody, we just don’t take the time to listen.

Love on each other first above all else. Above correction, above expression, above solving problems, above success, above challenges, above progress, LOVE.

Know that God will take care of your future, do not waste these precious moments worrying about the next 35 years, enjoy them.

Don’t skip any moment sharing what God’s heart is to others. Too many people skip these moments, they race past them, they avoid them, they see them as insignificant, don’t skip any of these moments. Share the heart of God with everyone you can.

Be Jesus, be Jesus’s hands, feet, voice & vessel.

I thank God for this moment in time. For slowing down, for the revelations, for the blessings of that still small voice. I hope this poetic glimpse of the rest of my life is a blessing to you.

Heather

 

Unrelenting Passion

Your Passion will always have a connection to your life like an unrelenting string or rope. Sometimes it is only a sewing string barely hanging on & sometimes its an unbreakable chain. Most of us although are somewhere between a sewing string and perhaps a 1/4″ size rope. Our passion has been criticized, stomped on, forgotten, lost and sometimes just thrown out. Why does it always seem to hold on? Why does it always seem to prick our thoughts when we least expect it.

To be honest the most I am reminded of passions is when I meet someone that has achieved something I so desired to achieve at some point in my life.

*The first thoughts are reminders of the Happy Feelings I received in thought

*The next were the excuses & life circumstances that prevented me from achieving

*The last was the overwhelming depressed feeling of failure

Had any of these thoughts recently?

 

I have come to the understanding that Your Passions in Life are actually millions of seeds that were planted & ordained to grow. Matter of Fact these seeds were meant to Flourish! Picture an empty 100 acre track of land. Now consider your creator walking in a weaving path dropping seeds on this empty track. As time progressed some seeds sprouted, other grew & some never saw the light of day. Now think of the environment this land has seen.

Some days are sunny, some raining, some storms & come and wiped out everything. Some trampling has occurred. Perhaps you are imagining crowds running through your track colorful, beautiful flower garden. Some are imagining monster trucks having a heyday on all of your rose bushes & fruit trees. Some are literally imagining a tractor tilling up all the land & demolishing any evidence of life leaving only soft, dry, icky brown dirt.

As we talk about passion & love we can be reminded of our dreams. Some of you may have a harder time & some of you may recall instantly. In ALL cases these passions will always be a part of your creation. In every case above, the seeds could never become unplanted. They never are removed from you.

Allow yourself to revisit your Passions. Write them down. You can even take note on why you have that passion and what would come out of you pursuing that passion. Take captive of negative talk, do not allow yourself to believe those passions will not come to pass or that it is too late. If you have not started a Journal I encourage you to begin one now.

Write at the Top “My Passions are Unrelenting”

  1. What 3 Passions do I have.
  2. Compliment these with Goals that you have let lay dormant. Whether they match or not. Journaling may allow somethings come to the forefront of your mind that need expressing.
  3. Journal the images that your mind creates. “When I think about these passions I see…”
  4. If someone were to pursue these passions what character strengths would they need? For example “This would require someone to be Strong, Loving, Intuitive, Positive, Knowledgeable, Caring, Inspiring…”
  5. Then Create 3 “I statements”
    1. I am Loving
    2. I Inspire others around me
    3. I am a Strong Woman/Man
  6. You can end your journal entry with a promise to yourself or a prayer to God. Ask Him to stir these desires & help be your encourager everyday as you pursue your passions once again.

Your Passions are Unrelenting because you were Designed for Greatness -Heather

 

 

 

Never Satisfied

Women consume their lives with time and energy used to fulfill gaps and gapes of emptiness, constant questioning and searching for answers to the desolate places in the life and barren existence of who they are. – Heather Blatz

Have you ever felt the newness of a challenge in life? Perhaps a new job, buying a home or a home remodel project, maybe you were challenged with a new craft from Pinterest or perhaps you are buying a new car. We get so excited and energized, even renewed in newness…for a moment.

When the newness wears off where do we find ourselves? The answer is unanimous and not difficult, it is called “Seeking”. Constant seeking stems from our notion of needing incessant stimulation.

Why do you think we need perpetual excitement?

Why are we always searching for fulfillment?

A better question is why are we not fulfilled?

Fulfillment is defined as satisfaction or happiness as a result of fully developing one’s abilities or character. This is interesting because when we are searching to be fulfilled we are not usually searching inward.

My desire for you in this passage today is for you to begin seeking fulfillment in the right places. We understand that our constant desire for excitement stems from a place that is empty. You are a Daughter of God; designed with a unique character and an internal aspiration! If you agree, say YES!

If you find yourself relating to this post, here are a few steps to reversing the focus of your internal void.

  1. PRAY FOR REVELATION “God help reveal what I am seeking in life that is not in line with your pleasure & helps me see where I can seek you more”

 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.  Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.  You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:11-13

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But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you seek him with all your heart and with all your soul. Deut 4:29

     2. DECLARE THANKSGIVING: When you start to desire more or new things, declare thanksgiving over what you have. Thanksgiving will fight the attacks of the enemy in this area.

Give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. 1 Thes 5:18

Always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ. Eph 5:20

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. Phil 4:6

FIGHT THE ATTACKS OF THE ENEMY…

For everything in the world–the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life–comes not from the Father but from the world. 1 John 2:16

      3. BEGIN TO SERVE OTHERS. I would challenge you to choose one service that comes to mind when you read these scriptures. You may have several ideas, but choose one and write the others in a notebook. Focus on this one service to the best of your abilities in prayer and perseverance.

In all things, I have shown you that by working hard in this way we must help the weak and remember the words of the Lord Jesus, how he himself said, ‘It is more blessed to give than to receive.’” Acts 20:35

When he had washed their feet and put on his outer garments and resumed his place, he said to them, “Do you understand what I have done to you? You call me Teacher and Lord, and you are right, for so I am. If I then, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also ought to wash one another’s feet. John 13:12-14

Whoever brings blessing will be enriched, and one who waters will himself be watered. Prov 11:25

Dear Heavenly Father, I thank you for this time of worship and desire to press into you. Lord, we pray for revelation in knowing who we were created as your daughters and in your image. We thank you for the desire to push self aside in order for your word & heart to manifest in and through us. I pray your holy spirit burn the root of your word in each Woman’s life reading and applying this blog. We love you and honor you, heavenly father! In Jesus Name Amen!

When you Know He’s Real

The world is such a confusing place you know? Especially when you are trying to find who you really are. We have the known and we have the unknown. We spend most of our time trying to figure out the unknown using the knowledge we have. Doesn’t really make sense, does it? What we know is what we have seen, heard or experienced. If we don’t know or understand something we utilize expert resources or other opinions to determine what answer we are comfortable with believing.  So now what we know is not actually what we know, it is what we have chosen to believe given the time and circumstances.

Just a few months past my salvation at the age of 26, I decided I knew nothing and I didn’t have much belief in anything or anyone except that Jesus was real & He was with me. I found myself without words when people asked questions about my new found faith. This was definitely out of the norm. Early on I had taught myself that even if I didn’t know the answer I could talk enough to convince others that I knew exactly what I was doing. This time normal response of rambling in quick defense turned into a peaceful smile. A smile that either people were confused by, or some just determined I was hiding confusion and of course, some knew exactly where my faith had me. Finding the peace of God does not need to be explained. It does not need to have a definition or a list of explanations. The Peace of God does exactly what His word says it does and that is… Surpasses all Understanding (Phil 4:7).

Surpassing all Understanding was not the way I was raised nor was it the way my college professors taught me to accept. Getting to know God’s way of life was very different and definitely a process. At this point in my life, I knew that my way had failed, I had broken trust, burnt relationships & truly disappointed my own self as floods of my decisions & consequences weighed on my heart & drastically on everyone around me. There I was carrying a life I created out of the knowledge I had gained, the values (or lack thereof) I based my decisions on bursting into tears with no warning…for weeks! With makeup smeared, nose running, not able to explain why I was crying so hard when it had been almost 6 years since I even shed a tear, I found myself with hands raised & admittance that I wasn’t going to be the author of my life anymore. There were many things I did not understand and I was still facing consequences of my previous actions but God began to guide me. and encourage me to stand. God gave me Peace in these moments as I accepted his Grace and Mercy.  I began to replace knowledge and feelings with Faith & Acceptance. I finally understood that God knew more than I did! God had said something to me a few weeks prior that will be branded on my Heart forever and changed the course of my life.  These are the words God whispered to me as He Embraced the broken Woman I was

“Heather, My Daughter, I created you for something amazing, for something more than you can even imagine. It is time for you to discover My Daughter, My Creation, My Child. You are beautiful & wonderfully made. Will you let me raise you as My Daughter? Will you allow yourself to see what I see? I think now is a good time.”

This day, with these words & my spirit, uplifted, and my heart filled with Love I had Peace. 

I pray tonight as I write this that these words find you in a place to receive His Grace. This is God’s desire for you. To hear His voice. To begin to see yourself the way God sees you. To allow Him to take you back to childhood & instill His values, life lessons & true Fatherly Love. What do you say? Are you ready to see the Woman in the mirror He created? If you are I invite you to pray this prayer:

“Dear Heavenly Father, I am amazed by your Goodness. Thank you for bringing me to a place where my heart is open to receive your Love. I am ready to see myself the way you see me. Enlighten my heart with your Love & thoughts of me. My heart is open to receive your mercy & grace. Please give me the strength to fight the thoughts the enemy has tormented me with. I will not believe another word of it In Jesus Name! I am Your Daughter, Beautiful & Wonderfully Made! I declare & stand in agreement with these words in Jesus precious name! Amen!”