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A Moment of Silence

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A moment of silence…or many of them.

“Silence is a Blessing”

I have come to realize my silent moments are truly a blessing. I am no neurologist or psychiatrist but I picture my brain having an army of hundreds of little battle ready soldiers firing extra thoughts, facts, worries, reminders and countless of other bullets that hinder my current thought process and sometimes completely wipe out my well thought out daily plans. It’s like our brains work even more when we quit moving. Once I settle in for the evening I feel like my brain quadruples it’s work load & activity level. Do we capture these thoughts, do we try to ignore them, do I embrace the constant rambling in my head?

No. I breath. I breath slower and slower. With every breath I say

“Lord I just thank you, I thank you for the ability to dream, I thank you for the strategy you give me, I thank you for the life you have blessed me with, I thank you for my family, I thank you for all those around me that I love, I thank you for all those around me that love me, I thank you that you are working wonders each and every moment of every day in and around me. I thank you for your rest, I thank you for the reminder to “Be still and Know”. I know you desire me to live in peace and comfort. I do not have to have all of the answers or all of the plans. I will give you the time to teach me and guide me in everything I do. I thank you Lord”

After this prayer, I take in a few more breaths, capturing each thought, acknowledging that everything will align in God’s perfect timing. Breathing in again. I love the  music of 432 hz. If you just search on YouTube for 432 hz music you will find plenty, choose your favorite one and download it so you can have it readily available for 2-3 times per day silent moments.

I love this revelation of the blessing of silent moments. I pray that God reveals to you areas of your life he can bring peace and rest.
Heather

Cried at 35

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So today I turned 35. It has been the most emotional birthday yet. I am not quite sure if it was because today is my birthday or if its just an emotional day.  Perhaps it has to do with the amount of chaos an adult handles at this point in their life with friends and family. I was actually sad today. I mean I absolutely adored the gift scavenger hunt the girls lead me on at 645 am the morning. That was wonderful, joyous & fulfilling. But I was emotional and sad today. I was faced with a lot of memories & quick glimpse of my life in flashes. In these visions I saw crying, fighting, joy, laughter, love, sadness, fear, accomplishment, challenge, fast, slow & everything in between.

So whether it has to do with today being the start of my 36th year venture or not, I am going to take a moment to declare some changes, focus’s & dreams. If I were my 70 year old self, what would I say to my 35 year old self.

Heather

Don’t work your life away. Spend time with the people you love. You have faith and trust in the Lord don’t live it part of the time, live it all of the time.

Ask Him to show you every morning “What else can I give you, that I haven’t already”.

His desire is for you to live a joyful, fulfilled life.

Take a moment each day to breath in your blessings.

Think about what you are doing that requires God & what you are doing that only requires your own strength and talents. Allowing God to use you is way less exhausting.

Ask God to show you how to spend time with the beautiful daughters of yours. Time that will create memories and have a lasting impression. Make this a priority.

Look people in the eyes. So much is missed when you don’t see someone’s spirit by looking them in the eyes.

See the beauty in all of God’s creation, it is breath taking. Take a moment every day and ask God to reveal the beauty around. The beauty that so many people are missing in this fast paced life.

Listen to the songs lyrics people are speaking in, there is a melody, we just don’t take the time to listen.

Love on each other first above all else. Above correction, above expression, above solving problems, above success, above challenges, above progress, LOVE.

Know that God will take care of your future, do not waste these precious moments worrying about the next 35 years, enjoy them.

Don’t skip any moment sharing what God’s heart is to others. Too many people skip these moments, they race past them, they avoid them, they see them as insignificant, don’t skip any of these moments. Share the heart of God with everyone you can.

Be Jesus, be Jesus’s hands, feet, voice & vessel.

I thank God for this moment in time. For slowing down, for the revelations, for the blessings of that still small voice. I hope this poetic glimpse of the rest of my life is a blessing to you.

Heather

 

Peek into Worship

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Recently I came to realize that “Worship” doesn’t mean the same to everyone. It is not that people do not want it to mean the same thing. It is that they only get what they know. They only know what they experience. They only experience what they have been introduced to.

I have been a worshiper since 2009 when I met Jesus. I did not grow up knowing and understanding who Jesus was at all. I knew that there was God and God created man and people went to church on Sundays. Although I didn’t go to church regularly I knew God created me.

I did find myself praying, however. My grandmother introduced my brother and me to prayer as children. Although prayer was never a constant in my life as a child, it was my absolute go-to when my life was disrupted or I felt alone.

I will not go into my entire salvation story today. My point in referencing this is that I literally was brought to my knees by the holy spirit and began following Jesus because Jesus opened my eyes (at the age of 26). I talked to God from then on. I learned how relational He was and the one way to connect with him was through worship. Worship through singing, through silence and listening and through dancing. By no means was I a great singer or dancer. I began to realize the more I let go and didn’t care whether what I was singing or how I sounded or whether I had any rhythm to my movement, the more I connected with the Holy Spirit. That “Peace and Joy that surpasses all understanding” is absolutely what I experienced.

Worship is what we were created for.

We are always trying to find peace and joy through our own means. We come up with things we want to do or be involved in thinking we will find complete happiness and fulfillment. Upon completion or even halfway through we only find ourselves lacking desired results.

Why do you think this is? Why do you think we can see the light at the end of the tunnel believing and thinking we have found our calling only to find ourselves at the starting line again?

I believe that when we connect with God relationally and intimately through worship that he teaches us things that are beyond our natural abilities to comprehend. That the fulfillment is in a spiritual place and our minds are far too immature to grasp it. When we make this connection consistent we are filled, fulfilled & walking in peace and joy consistently.

Welcome to walking into one of the first things you will not grasp until you experience. That is the way God works. We shouldn’t expect anything less from a God that is so wonderful.

God, I thank you for the people reading this. I thank you that their hearts are desiring to know you more and to know themselves more…the way you created them. I pray a release of your holy spirit into their lives through worship. I pray they find worship in silence, singing, dancing, writing, painting, drawing and any other creative area you place on their heart. I pray an awakening of their spirit and a fire in their heart to know you more. I pray this in your precious son Jesus name Amen.

Winning Life When Losing

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The beauty of life is questionable when we lose something or someone

When we lose our grip, our hope, our love, our passion, our dreams, our family, our breath or even ourselves, it is life draining. Our brokenness causes hopeless & meaningless living.

It is surely true that life has losses and most would agree that life has its Joy’s. Even the substantial joys & successes lie in shadows when we lose even the smallest things.
The joy of a Newborn child to a family whose heart is still mending from a miscarriage. The unbearable pain as a mother holds her 5-year-old baby girl for the last time as she drifts away. The joy when you find your soul mate and reminisce about wedding photos. The never-ending waves that continue to knock you down after they chose a life with another romance. The smiles at Christmas when a long-awaited career promotion allows the celebration of gift giving. The unrelenting pit of debt, bills and a job that tears your family apart. The deaths from addiction, accidents, illness, tragedies & unforeseen circumstances.

Every heart is breakable, and every soul cries.

The reality of this part of life begins to set certain standards for us. Have you ever heard of the saying “I’m losing my Grip on Life.” We grip & hold on to what we can and do everything in our power to not lose what we have. We do not even realize that our drive is no longer a drive for life, it is a drive to keep from losing our life.
I am not going to go into the natures that birth from fear. The point in today’s writing is to ask ourselves this question. How much of my life is driven by the fear of losing? Do I set goals based on what I want to make sure I don’t miss? Are my dreams hindered by complacency because I am afraid of losing what I have gained? Money, control, love, loved ones even positions? Write down a few things that are coming to mind as you read these questions.
After you write a few things down, let’s pray together.

Dear Heavenly Father, we thank you for this recognition of fear-driven grip on our lives. Thank you for revealing these areas and helping to continue to bring them to the forefront of our focus. We ask that you help us trust you more God. Believing in you also means we Believe that you will work all things together for our good. Thank you for that. As you reveal these “grips,” we declare ourselves free from them. Free from the fear and control that binds us from actually living. We will no longer allow ourselves to live in fear of losing. I declare a shift & new mindset, new dreams, fresh desires, and actions. Let a new faith arise in the hearts of your sons and daughters. We Thank you & Love you and pray this all in Jesus Name Amen.

 

 

Waiting for You

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Do you hear me today…sweet child, sweet daughter of mine? I came to comfort you in your dreams last night…you know… after the prayer, you whispered before drifting off. I am not sure if you recognize my presence. I smile at the thought of you saying yes. I close my eyes and catch a glimpse of your smile in days to come. I will sit… and wait…Oh if you could only see what I see, who I see. You are such an amazing woman. I knitted you together, every cell, every detail. I also know what makes you smile, I know what causes your eyes to change colors and your heart to sing. I know where to touch your spirit to release buried tears. I know the dark places you have been. It is okay my love.  Although I was there, I didn’t see what you hoped I wouldn’t, I only saw your spirit crying. I longed to comfort you there. I know you heard me. I tried to understand when you turned your ear away, although I haven’t grasped why you will not trust me… I will wait. I love you and I will call you every day…until you reach my arms & find comfort in my embrace. I will be right here…I will wait.

When you Know He’s Real

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The world is such a confusing place you know? Especially when you are trying to find who you really are. We have the known and we have the unknown. We spend most of our time trying to figure out the unknown using the knowledge we have. Doesn’t really make sense, does it? What we know is what we have seen, heard or experienced. If we don’t know or understand something we utilize expert resources or other opinions to determine what answer we are comfortable with believing.  So now what we know is not actually what we know, it is what we have chosen to believe given the time and circumstances.

Just a few months past my salvation at the age of 26, I decided I knew nothing and I didn’t have much belief in anything or anyone except that Jesus was real & He was with me. I found myself without words when people asked questions about my new found faith. This was definitely out of the norm. Early on I had taught myself that even if I didn’t know the answer I could talk enough to convince others that I knew exactly what I was doing. This time normal response of rambling in quick defense turned into a peaceful smile. A smile that either people were confused by, or some just determined I was hiding confusion and of course, some knew exactly where my faith had me. Finding the peace of God does not need to be explained. It does not need to have a definition or a list of explanations. The Peace of God does exactly what His word says it does and that is… Surpasses all Understanding (Phil 4:7).

Surpassing all Understanding was not the way I was raised nor was it the way my college professors taught me to accept. Getting to know God’s way of life was very different and definitely a process. At this point in my life, I knew that my way had failed, I had broken trust, burnt relationships & truly disappointed my own self as floods of my decisions & consequences weighed on my heart & drastically on everyone around me. There I was carrying a life I created out of the knowledge I had gained, the values (or lack thereof) I based my decisions on bursting into tears with no warning…for weeks! With makeup smeared, nose running, not able to explain why I was crying so hard when it had been almost 6 years since I even shed a tear, I found myself with hands raised & admittance that I wasn’t going to be the author of my life anymore. There were many things I did not understand and I was still facing consequences of my previous actions but God began to guide me. and encourage me to stand. God gave me Peace in these moments as I accepted his Grace and Mercy.  I began to replace knowledge and feelings with Faith & Acceptance. I finally understood that God knew more than I did! God had said something to me a few weeks prior that will be branded on my Heart forever and changed the course of my life.  These are the words God whispered to me as He Embraced the broken Woman I was

“Heather, My Daughter, I created you for something amazing, for something more than you can even imagine. It is time for you to discover My Daughter, My Creation, My Child. You are beautiful & wonderfully made. Will you let me raise you as My Daughter? Will you allow yourself to see what I see? I think now is a good time.”

This day, with these words & my spirit, uplifted, and my heart filled with Love I had Peace. 

I pray tonight as I write this that these words find you in a place to receive His Grace. This is God’s desire for you. To hear His voice. To begin to see yourself the way God sees you. To allow Him to take you back to childhood & instill His values, life lessons & true Fatherly Love. What do you say? Are you ready to see the Woman in the mirror He created? If you are I invite you to pray this prayer:

“Dear Heavenly Father, I am amazed by your Goodness. Thank you for bringing me to a place where my heart is open to receive your Love. I am ready to see myself the way you see me. Enlighten my heart with your Love & thoughts of me. My heart is open to receive your mercy & grace. Please give me the strength to fight the thoughts the enemy has tormented me with. I will not believe another word of it In Jesus Name! I am Your Daughter, Beautiful & Wonderfully Made! I declare & stand in agreement with these words in Jesus precious name! Amen!”